Turn, turn, turn.

When in the midst of something really difficult in life, i used to do something very simple. I would sit on my floor, take my Bible, and open it. Whatever popped out at me, chapter and/or verse, I took as my word for the day, time, or hour. it was my "daily bread......"

It didn't always make sense or apply, but most times it did and I began to hear and understand more. I am not a person that can be told what I need to think, but I need to know it for myself. I won't believe simply because I am expected too. I want a tangible, real experience for myself.......... much like the younger generation.

There is a reason that so many times in the Bible the words "hear" and "listen' are used. When I listen, I am giving attention to; if I hear, I am able to perceive or become aware of it. Before I waste my breath with my boys in particular, I will often ask if they are listening and/or hear me wink emoticon I wonder how many times that happens with my Higher Power........

I had Austin begin to pull the dead branches off the plants today, struggling to find new life in this spring season. Our two tiered pond will require cleaning and fresh water to be ready to go when it warms up:) I am so looking forward to the sound of the waterfall...........

We pulled together and finished painting Jordan's BR; it's cleaned and ready for him to move into. He will finally have a place to settle and not live out of suitcases, which is more than he's had in a two year period smile emoticonOnward and upward.

I received a reminder from Social Security over the weekend, telling me to fill out proper paperwork for my youngest, or his benefits will run out when he's 18 in June. Nothing like striking a bit of fear in my heart. Most days, I have to tell myself to remain calm and do not fear......and raise my level of trust.

I know that I am doing all that I can and putting the right pieces in place to go further. When that is the case, my daily bread has to be supplied as I seek out His purposes for me. 
My bread is Psalms 30 til April 30; feel free to take a "bite."

There is a turning. Full circle.

Chillin out.

After any heartbreak, ache, or loss of love, the need to self protect becomes so natural, so strong. It is a natural instinct, one of survivors; those who go to great lengths to protect what has become very precious.
Until acquainted with grief on a deep level, it is difficult to define............

Rather than reaching out, isolation is much easier. There is little to risk in self protection; my risk is calculated and I must constantly choose to take it. I learned very quickly the importance of reliance on others and to make requests of another. Their response is not in my control..... unfortunately.

The only response I can control is my own which is easier said than done, but we have returned with a "chill out" attitude, lol. The heart can harden all to quick, and then the Lord in heaven has nothing to work with. And so, I choose to remain pliable, flexible, and adaptable....... go with the flow.

At the start of our second week home, my oldest son is adjusting to time zone differences with work connections. There are a lot of demands on his time, and further adjustments and flexibility is required of him right now, as he comes back into our home to spend this transitory season in his life.

He has stepped into rental situations in which I need help for now, as we map out a plan going forward. He is a gem and I never want to hold him back. That is the challenge with our loss we continue to navigate:/
There are no easy answers, but Divine Intervention I have come to count on.

As we move to end the month of March I have a feeling there will be a few things I will be faced with in which I will need to protect what is precious.....
Not everything in life brings me clear cut answers, most do not; however, I look for the faithful among the few.

Goodnight east and west.

Full of Light and Life.

So, it has been over one full week since we arrived back home and we have been running to keep up. When i am obedient to the call of God upon my life, things happen. I am aligned with a greater vision......... and exciting stuff ensues:)

I think the last of our boxes are now unpacked, and our house does not look like a tornado hit it. Anything that does not have a spot is now in my BR, of course:/ Jordan's small BR is prepped for paint, while he lives out of our Family Room. He's used to living out of suitcases so no big deal!

I spent the first day in over two years really cleaning my own house and I loved it:) Having a home, we have been reminded, is such a blessing. It's always been important to me to care for whatever space we lived in, but is even more special.........

As I wiped, cleaned, dusted, and rinsed, I thought of this spring season we have entered. Even when it appears nothing has changed, or only a tiny piece of life is sprouting through there is hope. With the Easter holiday upon us, even more so. We have entered a new season........

Reflecting upon holiday coming, I have determined that if in any area of my life I have "one foot in the grave", it is time I pull it out. If I am not feeling alive, challenged, and hopeful, then I am going to make a change. Change is necessary to precipitate opportunity! Stay the same, be stale.

Austin landed a job with a Red Robin in our locale which we are so glad to hear; he begins next week! The ball is rolling with his transfer to Kutztown University for the Fall as well. Chynna paid a visit to the NEQ in Philadelphia today, to network with other volleyball coaches and clubs.

My other two boys handled rental maintenance work for me and enjoyed a calzone from Fiore's for lunch, and met up with friends while at Weaver's Hardware nearby:) Having been away from our home territory has created a greater appreciation for those of us who spent time in SoCal:)

I am so thankful for the teamwork we have demonstrated in the family business in one week. We are taking back the territory and cleaning house as necessary. Filled my empty rental with new tenants for the next month, with a lot of hard work in a week, and long days. We are tired..... but determined. Please continue to pray for us......

Although we don't know how long this "new season" will last, we do know we are in the right place, at the right time. My kids have demonstrated faithfulness beyond belief, challenging any illusion of fear created. I am a proud mom.

I have a new attitude, full of light, life, and love to share! 
Join me on the journey!