Joy is a gift of grief.

It seems the world is becoming an increasingly different place than I have ever known before, where more things are happening that make no sense. With such desensitization and disregard for human life, the void inside ourselves becomes ever more apparent…

To those who have suffered in life or feel the absence of another, I understand your pain..... and I am here for you. My kids are here. There can never be enough reminders of the life and breath we have been given, even with struggles.

In the book of John, chapter 16, Jesus speaks to his followers about grief and what He saw coming in His future. Those closest listened intently to His wisdom, insight, and foresight but could not completely grasp what His absence would mean and continued to ask Him those "why" questions.

For those who have followed our story from the beginning, I have shared moments before November 2011 where I too, was prepared for what was to come. Even though inconceivable at the time, I knew in my heart there was something to the warning signs....... they were meant to prepare me.

Jesus proceeds to tell them of a time when they would weep and mourn, "while others rejoiced" and life went on. There are times and seasons we walk through...... a time "you will grieve, but this grief will turn to joy.....

About two weeks ago Chynna and I took a drive through Palos Verdes, winding around on unfamiliar streets, praying as we went. I was seeking direction for the future...... as we were climbing higher and higher, I turned into a small cul de sac. Just ahead was a house sign that read, "the longest mile" and that's exactly how I felt my journey has been.....

As I headed back to return the way I came, a beautiful Christmas song began playing. I went straight ahead to the other end of the cul de sac street to see the spectacular view, and it was then things began to make sense.....
The name of the street was "Greve". I sat stunned, could I really be coming to the end of my time of grief..... There were fresh, fruit trees at the end of this street. Fruitfulness will come out of grief.........

Jesus said, "when you see me again, you will rejoice and no one will take away your joy." In that day, their questions would be satisfied; their journey, complete.........

I too am saying those words to the ones dearest to my heart, all of you...... "When you see me again....... you WILL see JOY." A gift this season......