Edge.

When I need to regain my focus or get refreshed, I have a place in Palos Verdes, or "PV", which I seem to be needing on a weekly basis since May. Tonight after praying, I made a list of pros and cons to remind Logan and myself why we came. My "stone tablets" so to speak.......

As I continue to avail myself to others, many are opening up to me.... with honesty about the area. I keep digging to understand this unusual city in this "strange, strange July." It's only the beginning.

Our East Coast edge can slowly deteriorate in this climate. On occasion, I write a vision out for each one, in order not to get caught up in wandering aimlessly in LA County. Chynna regained hers while home. Logan will find his again. Our perspective will keep us here..........

The kids are playing on the beach and training on their own this week while I'm working. Those who have their part time jobs work when scheduled, but isn't quite enough. Waiting on El Camino to accept Austin's loan so he can start in the Fall. That's gotta go through. We're on a deadline again:/

Chynna will be coaching a JV Girl's team for Vista Mar in the upcoming season; her pathway is becoming clearer. She will playing libero for a women's club team in Huntington Beach, starting this week:) A position she was meant to play.......

Late afternoon I felt cranky...... I know I'm not "alone" but I am weary of helping teens become independent and learn to live on their own. I could really use their dad's help right about now....... I didn't have any choice in that matter. Having both "healthy" parents available in a child's life is so important.

Trying not to feel desperate but some days..........