"Whenever I hear of a man, husband, father leaving a lady, whether she becomes a widow or is left a single woman, there is always a tug on my heart. This is particularly poignant when there are kids involved who are left behind and pay a price........."
Read moreDreams do not die.
I had to remind myself today that after our loss, I kept saying "things will settle down." My life, schedule, and activity level picked up at a rapid pace and I honestly thought it was only a matter of time til there was calm. I was wrong because I compared my present to the past and it does not fit.
This new pace would prepare me for the future because there was no way I could move at the pace of the past in the present, but expect to be positioned for my future.......... I have learned a key lesson as it relates to the subject of loss........
Upon returning to Pennsylvania, where there is a misconception of having a "slow paced life", I have set new things in motion. Having been coast to coast, I now know for sure we have the kind of life we create. If you can dream it, you should dare to do it.
As I worked at painting my property and cleaning up for five hours today, and have done this many years prior, it felt like a brand new time and season in my life..... FREEDOM 2015. I will not be a slave to the work any longer, but will make it work for me. I have changed.
I returned home with far more ideas than I left with; my creativity has been multiplied in California, as a result of self reliance and making myself put my faith into action. Challenging yourself to do something new can be invigorating and inspiring, even if done through fear and trembling.......
After the steadfast encouragement from my kids and signs abounding around me, I am taking steps to pursue my real estate career. I thought that idea was dead and buried, but it seems it is being resurrected. I am finding other old ideas, creations, and plans are coming back to life. Perhaps our dreams did not die....... but were simply dormant until NOW.
The financial challenges always face me, particularly as I hear of retirement and vacation plans being formed. I am rebuilding. I am restarting. I am refreshed. I am a work of restoration.......
"He who began a good work in me WILL complete it......."
The dream lives.
"And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream....... I have a dream today."
This portion of a speech was made by a man who is always remembered for his quest for freedom, brotherhood, and destiny. He knew each were intertwined and one could not come without the other. There are very few past and present who have the courage to speak in such a way..........
We have few leaders today who sacrifice self for the sake of others..... all because of a "dream." Let alone speak of it......
I believe MLK had a vision of a coming future, and perhaps further away than what he knew. Nonetheless very real. His words still hang in the air of expectation and anticipation. I personally know that freedom is a gift I cannot give up. I cannot be bound by mediocrity or melancholy.
I spent the day sorting through my books of notes, getting organized to write. My focus this week is getting my new tablet ready to roll so I can be more efficient. My techy son Jordan, tires of my requests for help in this area, mostly because I don't want to screw anything new up:)
The time zone differences can really be a problem when trying to talk on both coasts. We're still trying to figure out what works without me staying up until midnight at night. My focus is to write for two months and try to delay any distractions.............. distractions are different than hassles.
As I look at the present and immediate future, I kind of want time to stand still. Life is moving at a rapid pace and even though I'm trying my best, I still feel a "slave" to the impending loss of benefits for my youngest and wondering what I will do. Very real issues are faced by single mothers, particularly widows, years later unsure emoticon
"It is for freedom that Christ set us free" and it is up to me not to become burdened by a yoke of "slavery" again. I don't want to pick up what I have been released from.
Freedom 2015.