"Life may possibly be busier than it's ever been for me at this current time...... but I don't think I would change a thing right now. I am feeling energized even though I am so tired; flowing when in a frenzied state. Creativity is my compass................."
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The month of May has been quite amazing; it has moved so quickly and I have my foot on the accelerator, so to speak. As i hear of graduation plans coming up next week, I am glad to have one more year at home with my youngest:)
Jordan's been organizing pictures and working on updating my blog, in order to expand it and for readers to access it more easily. As he pulls up pictures of each of us in the last 7 years, the change is startling. I don't even recognize myself........... and the kids have all grown. Their dad would be proud.....
My youngest has lost some time in learning practical things without him here, and because of our LA lifestyle. We are going to make sure he is equipped as best we can to take on tasks. Austin is able to figure some stuff out, having had his dad around a bit longer. Chynna is just plain resourceful, and Jordan is pretty much a genius, ha ha. Trying to learn from each other.
I actually impressed Jordan today, as I push to get the painting job done in my office. My goal is to finish up tomorrow night and move back in early next week! I will be starting fresh, transforming it from the former shared work space for our business, into finally, what will be all my own..............
Goals are good; plans are purposeful; however, they can get in the way of spontaneity, creativity, and actually living. There are so many people who plot out their future course, stick to it, and do not veer off of it. Even at young ages, adventure takes a back seat to too much practicality sometimes.
We need to live a little bit more, and learn to enjoy it........
"With joy, I will draw water......" Isaiah 12:3
Dreams do not die.
I had to remind myself today that after our loss, I kept saying "things will settle down." My life, schedule, and activity level picked up at a rapid pace and I honestly thought it was only a matter of time til there was calm. I was wrong because I compared my present to the past and it does not fit.
This new pace would prepare me for the future because there was no way I could move at the pace of the past in the present, but expect to be positioned for my future.......... I have learned a key lesson as it relates to the subject of loss........
Upon returning to Pennsylvania, where there is a misconception of having a "slow paced life", I have set new things in motion. Having been coast to coast, I now know for sure we have the kind of life we create. If you can dream it, you should dare to do it.
As I worked at painting my property and cleaning up for five hours today, and have done this many years prior, it felt like a brand new time and season in my life..... FREEDOM 2015. I will not be a slave to the work any longer, but will make it work for me. I have changed.
I returned home with far more ideas than I left with; my creativity has been multiplied in California, as a result of self reliance and making myself put my faith into action. Challenging yourself to do something new can be invigorating and inspiring, even if done through fear and trembling.......
After the steadfast encouragement from my kids and signs abounding around me, I am taking steps to pursue my real estate career. I thought that idea was dead and buried, but it seems it is being resurrected. I am finding other old ideas, creations, and plans are coming back to life. Perhaps our dreams did not die....... but were simply dormant until NOW.
The financial challenges always face me, particularly as I hear of retirement and vacation plans being formed. I am rebuilding. I am restarting. I am refreshed. I am a work of restoration.......
"He who began a good work in me WILL complete it......."