A structure soundly built.

My late husband was a builder, and it seems we as his family, have taken up the trade. Whether careers, confidence, communications, or relationships, we are building......... and learning as we go.

In going to California, a place where the emphasis on oneself is so high, I saw the emptiness and isolation of no support. A good structure is built with proper "support." The support can bring about stability, which is of utmost in building something meant to last.........

Even if I am on my last dollars or I carry debt, I will continue to offer support, and ask for it when I need it. As I restructure my household and business plan in PA, there is stress put on our family. The only answer I can offer is a focus on the future, and pushing past the present troubles.

Perhaps it is my childlike faith, or my belief in better days that drives me, or maybe it my dreams........ whatever it is, I am living on the edge of something great. I am always learning to manage my tension too, but I am a bit concerned that I cannot function without an ongoing list to do now:/

I have a meeting with my former broker Barb in Macungie tomorrow morning to get the renewal process going. I'm told real estate is moving and the spring season feels like it is finally upon us ;D

My oldest went from a lifestyle of self sufficiency and simplicity to the complete opposite in a few weeks. His time management is being tested beyond beliefs in these first few weeks and until May 1, so please pray for us. 
Chynna's fitness training is beginning to blossom as well, and boot camp starts this week. Our schedules are a bit of insanity.

In the coming days, I will be asking for help and recommendations for business needs I have. Logan's looking for a summer job that is flexible of course, b/c of prior volleyball commitments. And then there's the college search......

Lord willing, we will make it.

Finding your way home.

"I was terrified the first time I left home but I persevered, knowing where home was and that I would always come back to it." (source unknown)

Perseverance. It grows from the testing of my faith; the trials I endure as I allow the process to work in my life. When this work is finished, the Book of James says I can be complete and mature, and lacking nothing. And when you're in the position I am in, this sounds pretty important to attain.

Perhaps God knew I was a quitter early on.... until He got a hold of me when I was 20 years old. Early on, the thing that tested me the most, as many know, was housing. This virtue would take years to develop but is wrapped up in my destiny.......... .

I was like many others and wanted the perfect home to raise a family in, especially having married a man older than I. When Plan B came into place, I naively agreed to the work required to put us in a better position than we had been financially. Little did I know the intense and immense work required to get there............

In order to hang onto what we have attained, I have needed this perseverance because there have been many times I want to throw in the towel. Concede. Admit that I cannot do this. Perhaps there is a Plan B, or just maybe I need a little bit more of my fight back..

My definition of home and what I wanted for the family we created was a place of acceptance. No matter what kind of day each of us had, there would always be a place of comfort awaiting. Comfort does not mean coddling to me, but a space for expansion and growth. Support. Safety.

With this in mind, the kids will be returning home in the next month. ALL of them. I have a feeling we will all enjoy what we've held onto here.... and work hard to keep it.

Updates will follow so watch for more:) Goodnight.