Oh Gravity.

As the game was ready to begin last night, a young woman held the mic to sing the national anthem in a full house. When the mic cut in and out, the crowd joined together to sing..... and the tone was set for the night. It was an inspiring and positive experience......

There is something very special about the connections established through this sport. Friends new to the game feel it..... and those very familiar with it, know it. Anytime the focus is off of self and the futile life it feeds, the better society is.

Since arriving here, there's been so much good that's happened; but equally so, the negativity has been bombarding. My late husband almost always had a positive word to say, which was kind of annoying:) But this drama and attack on the positive has been ludicrous. I must be part of a test........ but I won't be beat.

I've added a few extra hours to my work schedule while needing to remain part-time at Prudential. I need to find something to supplement my income, so praying for a miracle. Chynna was offered a job today which is awesome news! Her previous job was temporary, so she needed something soon. She has a strong will and the faith to match.

Believing this weekend will shed light on where we're heading and make each of our paths more clear. Feel free to believe for yourself and with us:)

Logan's begun more serious training with a teammate to improve his vertical.
His motto is "when gravity is pulling you down, you need the ability to get right back up." Amen.

Regrets.

A few short months ago, I couldn't imagine things changing any more than they already had in my life. I set out on this journey west, fully present in the decision making and determination to persevere. There were days of difficulty I didn't know if I could bear........

After our move, I couldn't imagine being without my daughter; her dreams were our driving force to get here. But on this last Saturday in April, we moved her into her own place, without hurt in my heart or tears in my eyes. I freely let her go.....

I think the initial process of "letting go," no matter the situation or circumstance, may be the hardest hurdle to jump because of history and meanings behind memories ..... but it seems to have gotten a little easier. My focus is shifting, just as my life has.

My closet is literally very empty, so I'm quite motivated to build my wardrobe ..... and myself. There are things I've wanted to do for myself for a very long time, to get "stronger." I hope to begin to make some things happen, like long walks on the beach to clear my head and heart.......

It can become so very hard to let go. For me, to live life without regrets is to actively engage it, every single day. The intentional decision has to be an internal one.......

Our "mourning" is meant to "last for a night" because "joy comes in the morning." a Psalm of David.

Goodnight.

Finding Fortunes.

As I reflect on my life, I realize my path has been paved by many tears, hard work, and pressures along the way. Each experience has served a purpose, because I use the pain to my own advantage.......

I have been in a constant state of transition for 2+ years, as it has been a season of starting over for me....... something that still leaves me speechless.

I am so very grateful for the friendships and support I've had and have been finding. I could never do this alone. Today I was told by a new friend I would least expect that "many are glad I'm here," my whole day brightened. These were the exact words I needed to hear.

As I continue to take strategic risks here and back home, the launching of my blog House of Secrets will now be host for our transition to our new name for the Memory Page. We have outgrown the FB space and in order to open this group again, I will be writing under the heading:

"Finding Fortunes"

And I will be expounding on the "secrets" and reasons I chose this title:)
I am also expanding into new territory and using my blog to do so. I am establishing what I am calling a coast to coast prayer network, in a strategic effort to reach the younger generations with a message of hope and a future.

They DO have something to live for.... a purpose under heaven to find and fulfill, and I HAVE to do something.

So, I am choosing to use our loss for this greater purpose and with this in mind, I am launching "Jacob's Well" as our coast to coast connection. More details to follow........

April is bringing a vision for our mission. Join us. Goodnight and Love.