So of course after writing what I did last night, I found myself today texting the very same question to my closest ally… "Why is all of this happening to me." This was particularly in reference to rental issues and financial strains. He however, reminded me, that we are in this together…
I have never met a man quite like him. No matter how I have tested or tried him, he remains by my side. I somehow knew more than a year ago, by doing long distance, we would be able to figure out how much we mean to each other......... thanks John.
Yet again, there are forecasts of rain coming to the SoCal area which is almost unfathomable. San Fran is preparing for quite the storms to come, as if there will be blizzard like conditions, or so Jordan tells me. There will always be predictions and prognoses which often include bad news.......
I imagine Job had to wonder what was coming next after experiencing the elements as he had........ And then his "friends" and even his wife seem to goad him into cursing his very existence, further distancing himself from the future that was to come his way........ double or nothing.
I find that when the present pressures me and trouble seems to pursue me, the hope in the future is all I have to fuel me. I am being reminded however, to keep the present in focus also, even when I am feeling consumed by continual contacts who are just headaches:/ Let it go.
Chynna has begun packing and moving a few of her things into our garage in preparation for joining us here. It's as if she's the spark the boys need to come to life;) She continues her coaching jobs and gaining so much knowledge in various fields from valuable sources..........
As Austin finishes up finals week at Elco, he seems to have secured his job at Giulianos Restaurant nearby. I'm now playing chauffeur to the two boys for the time being and our car talks have been meaningful. His sales ability seems to be in demand, as he's had a few job offers come up:)
In the midst of the toil and trouble I experience, there are a few things that make me smile. Things such as the few special friends I have made, making coffee or lunch plans on my own. I really am the kind of girl who enjoys the simple things in my life.........
Preserving the present is more fulfilling than self preservation.