Learning to feel again.

Instability can come about through current economic conditions, future predictions, divorce, and devastation left behind by another's departure. There seems to be no time to 'plan ahead" because there's always enough in keeping up with the present. I am making the shift..............

After two months home, we are feeling settled back east; even my San Franciscan son, Jordan. His time in the city will always be a part of his DNA going forward, and in reflecting upon his time there, it was a freaking adventure. His landlord stories alone are basically nightmares, LOL.
I am glad he stayed safe among the mentally unstable.

As we come and go, with each on our own schedules, I think we're learning to function as a team a bit better. From digging the holes, to mowing the lawn, to spackling my home office, the conversation has evolved from an "I don't have time" mentality to "let's get it done."

Kids often take up the ambition they see in their parents, and I know the fact that I don't let up speaks to my own offspring. I sometimes feel like I'm a workaholic, but I refuse to take on that role. I tell myself I'm doing what is necessary and I don't have any other option. I would love if someone would say, "let me do that for you"... but I am getting stronger.

I know many of you wonder if the kids really wanted to leave the L.A. area and California in general to come back to PA. I can honestly say yes, absolutely. There is no doubt in our minds how much the culture can impact a person's psyche and soul, and is one that left us dried out, deadened, ......... and hardened.

The dating scene offered no viable options in the state of CA, as we found so many phonies, fanatics, and fruitcakes unfortunately. "Being here warms my heart and it's not just about feeling warmth, but feeling all of the emotions again," sentiments expressed by my 22 year old daughter.........

Having crossed this wonderful country of ours, in flight and on the ground, what my kids have come to realize is how GOOD we have it here.

Chynna's words ring true on this Memorial Day and should remind each of us to be grateful for those who give more than many could even imagine...... those who hurt, sacrifice, and suffer in silence.

"I shut so many out for so long so I wouldn't feel upset and disappointment. 
What they don't realize is how good it is here, if you don't leave, you don't know."

God Bless America.