I think in so many ways I'm like any other person who craves comfort and stability and wants to count on another person to provide it. After all, that's all I've ever known.........

When I was younger raising my kids, a part of me wanted structure and methods that would work so I wouldn't have to think. Just implement. That idea of control seemed to work for everyone else, but didn't quite work for me. I had to make it up as I went and trust my instincts were right:)

Finally talked with my oldest tonight, after going for well over a week or more without speaking. It usually begins late at night and ends far past my bedtime:/ We covered a wide variety of subjects in an hour's time! Politics, Religion, Dating, etc., etc.

One of our cats went missing tonight, after Logan parked the ATV inside. He used his flashlight on his phone to search for Schmoopie, as I listened from 3000 miles away:) Thankfully she found her way to the back but she won't be making the trip to Cali tomorrow. We decided one will come with the boys tomorrow; the other one in a week or so when a friend comes to visit:)

Logan and I talked about his return here tomorrow; more like I talked, he listened. He has had the best time home, reaffirming his friendships, faith, and life experiences. In spite of the "great weather" and "everything to love," we know there is more to life than this.

For now, he returns......... we all need reminding of our mission regularly. Still kind of making it up as I go along......... without a manual:)

The month of March is coming to an end, marking my six month stay in the South Bay. April is quickly on its way, with my sights set on an unfolding vision...... It seems we are on a MISSION.

My search for housing options will begin shortly, so planning to look for the coming future. Switching health insurance is almost complete which was a bit daunting initially. As one thing comes to an end, there is another insurance policy coverage to work through. I hate it.

The changes came as a result of my husband's death but now an outcome of my relocation process. Even if I'm here for an undisclosed length of time, certain steps much be taken. I'm deciding rather than to see things as one big overwhelming load, I am taking a piece at a time, and when I can handle it.

The plan for my sister's family to move in and enjoy my house and community has been in place for 8 months. Their home in Bowmansville outside of Lancaster County has recently sold in the last week which is part of their process in moving forward from grief. I love it when a plan comes together:)

As I prayed today asking God to continue to "fund" my ability to be here, I looked up and noticed the license plate ahead of me. It said JUDEAH which is a form of the name Judah and means Praise. It was confirmed to me that my praise of the God in heaven, in spite of my circumstances, is the way my "economy" will change......

Two days ago after making the same request of the Lord, we sold a few tools of my late husband's, totaling a few hundred dollars. With bills due and needs to meet, I find as I make my specific request, I am somehow always blessed. Jordan's cavalier was sold today as well, all in time for his new move into the MISSION DISTRICT.

Chynna completed two big days of reffing in L.A., while Logan and partner Lucas played their first CBVA game. Very windy day at the beach which dictates the plays of the game, but was a great learning experience. We think of the many years playing grass doubles back east, in all kinds of elements. The elements prepare you for anything...............

"Fear doesn't shut you down...... it wakes you up." (Divergent)