So, I took two days and spent time in the heart of my great state of PA, soaking in the life of the land and appreciating its simple things. Driving on state roads covered in gravel and walking n the currents of a creek bed reminded me of my life long ago. It was like getting back to basics......

Exploring new places helps to satisfy my curiosities too. I did have internet access, but chose to refrain for the most part, LOL. I admit to being attached to my phone, but what most don't understand is the reason behind it.
After receiving the call from my 14 year old almost four years ago, I have had attachment issues. I always want to be available, just in case........

I am making progress however; I am getting to the point where I have been able to set it aside for longer periods of time than I used to. It may sound so simple and even silly, but the phone was that connection to the past, present, and soon to be future.

When you've been through something, as many have, like it or not there is a need for recovery. Open discussions, owning up to actions or addictions, requires vulnerability. In order to continue to progress, there needs to be a continual openness. It is easier to shut down or build walls.

Putting myself out there, in various ways, comes at a cost and I am learning about all sorts of control, costs, and coping methods others have. In the last few days, I was able to clear my head. As I continue to recover from past trauma and present withdrawals, I appreciate prayers. Never did I expect to get into certain situations. This summer has been unimaginable.............

When others walking this journey begin to echo meaningful sentiments, the voice of hope is empowered; the heartache does not disappear, but it can dissipate.
The hope that lies within us has to find its sound............. goodnight.