Seeing trauma and loss on a large scale in the City of Light is heart breaking. Sudden changes in life where you don't get to say goodbye, and your loved one somehow moves on without you, has fast become a feeling that cannot be ignored in this life. It makes me angry......
Learning to live and love again challenges the strongest, brightest, and bravest of persons. Even though we move on, we never forget the importance of letting the ones we love.... know it. Feel it. And never forget it......... never miss an opportunity, but take it instead.
As I watched a 60 Minutes special on the Paris attack tonight, there were triggers for me. I can identify shock and numbness, no tears, the matter of fact recounting of details. I never know when they will show up, yet in those flashes of light, they come to mind and I recall the memories....
I have been particularly bombarded this week, since the release of the link to buy my book on Amazon. This is to be expected... whenever I push through to do something out of the ordinary. There is some type of "warfare" to breakthrough. Hence, your encouragement means a lot smile emoticon
So many good things are happening and on the horizon. Logan and I are so very thankful to be in our home this year for the holidays. I did a pretty thorough housecleaning this weekend and pulled out some holiday decorations.
Getting things out ahead, in time for a party the kids are hosting and a visit from a West Coast friend for the holiday! Now to find a dining room table and 6 chairs.
I am dating someone who wants to spend the holidays with me/us, which is a switch from the last little while. His desire touches my heart, as we are working things out between our families. There never seems to be enough time in both of our lives, so spending it together means a lot. This is what I thought a "normal" relationship would look like..........
I've been on my own, give or take, for several years now which is hard to conceive of. There are always adjustments and sacrifices to make for another person.... but if it's the right one, there's a desire to do so. Triggers can take me back to fears and tears. Courage compels me to win.
It takes a special person to understand. #neversettle
Goodnight and Love.