So... I experienced MY first earthquake last night, a 5.3 from what I've heard. I was on the sofa when the shaking began, Austin laying on our bed. It was a weird shifting feeling that lasted a few seconds. The kids and I touched based immediately after to make sure each was okay. New experiences.

The fear felt after loss can be completely consuming.... the loss of a loved one, mobility, loss of income, a love, or personal freedom. Any and all provide the excuse we look for to remain content and comfortable, or at the minimum depressed. I have chosen to do the opposite which has facilitated an ability to overcome........

I'm spending a lot of time on the road these days driving, more than ever before if that was possible! Today was a "normal" Saturday for me spent cleaning our little apartment and running Logan to and fro. Practice for beach tourney tomorrow. Looks like a move is in our future as we plan to change apartments when the lease is up:/

I can't hold onto anything too tightly; home is where my heart is and who I love spending time with. With that in mind I'm mentally preparing for the housing change this summer. Chynna would like to move out on her own so a lot of pieces have to come together.

Tonight I reminded my son that he can talk to me about anything, even if uncomfortable, I realized afresh this week that his dad isn't here to do the guy talks like most kids have available. I never want Logan to feel slighted in that way, but it is part of loss.

Jordan got his first passport ever which was pretty exciting to me:) Who knows how far he will go.......... He found a room in the Mission District of SF for the month of April, and then we'll see where he lands.

Another day in so called paradise.......