"Twelve years ago....... on this day, in my 5th month of pregnancy, I gave birth to a son, Caden Trevor,  who was unable to sustain life. He became the third child I lost to what is known as a "miscarriage." This term miscarriage by definition is "an unsuccessful outcome of something planned".  Hmmm, how about that?"

"Thanking God today for the option of resurrection...... in after witnessing "death" in multiple ways over my lifetime, I can confidently say new life is available to us at any given time. Fortunately, these chances do not depend on whether I am "good enough" or my behavior warrants the benefits of "grace", but simply because........... of a sacrificial love.

"I have been asked by inquisitive minds, who have wondered how I have endured such hardship, losses, and trials over the course of my life. From the issues of abandonment to accusations, losses of loves and ever evolving relationships, much is required from those who have been given much. It is a Biblical principle one cannot get away from.

"Coming to terms with things that happen in life is probably one of the toughest transitions I have had to continually make. Perhaps because most time,  it means my desires are not considered; my will in matters is mute.

"I have had quite a few years in my journey of faith, and I use that term specifically, because faith is not religion. The more freedom I have found in my life, the closer I am to understanding what faith is meant to look like. I have found that an adverse effect of finding freedom is that it can offend and frighten those who choose to live with the need to control, much like the religious did in ancient days.

"I remember many years ago I returned home from the hospital, after suffering a horrendous loss.  In the 5th month of an unplanned pregnancy of our 5th child, I suffered a miscarriage. After delivering this tiny, perfect human, my blood pressure drastically dropped and frankly, I was close to death from internal bleeding. It seems incomprehensible  to me.......